Stiffen that upper lip up lil' lady

I was pulling myself into depression mood yesterday and Iris had to spend quite a long time to save me lol, yea the group BFCBJKM chat also cheered me up abit.
I was discussing about Tattoos with my parents and lol even though they were nagging I felt so loved. Like finally, all those feelings which left me for a couple of months just came back yesterday. Didn't know whether to cry for depression or joy.

Feeling one-
Centrestage// Deluding myself in lies// Feeling so hopeless cuz I can't even do what I love to do properly---

So I was thinking that I should not even open my mouth to any melody cuz I'm not even good at all. And thanks to everybody who said "Omg the song choice ok leh, can sing." and now when I didn't get into the finals, they came back bullshitting "Maybe it's song choice." Wow thanks. I love your advice, so you're telling me? knn
Just can't express how angry at those people.

Feeling two-
Asking about getting tattoos when I grow up// Questioning about society to my parents// Trashing centre stage to my parents

1) Tattoos
If you're a new reader, I love tattoos. We were watching an American show and there's this woman with tattoos all over her body. I started pointing at the woman and told my father "Eh papa I really want tattoo."

Dad to sis: "You see lah! Come home with tattoo just want scolding only."
Me: "Tsk scold nia"
Sis: "Aiyah pa, disown her!"
Dad: "No lah, won't disown."
Mum: "I tell you all, your parents will never disown, ok?"
-a few seconds of silence-
Me: "Oh so means I can have tattoos lah! ^_^"
Parents: "----------"

Simple convo which brightens me up, my parents love me! LOL.

2) Questioning about society
I was very frustrated about Singapore's kiasu-ness. So I was questioning my dad why must we put so much stress on ourselves. He didn't tell me anything much but just this
"i don't know actually, but I agree with you. I hope that you and mei can earn money and get out of this country and enjoy life. Just don't do drugs ok."

me: "o_o ok."

3) Centre stage
lol this, my mum just keep telling me that maybe one day I can just live my dreams. She told me that surely those who went into then finals have got special vocal lessons lol.
Let me just recall when was the last time she encouraged me.
Hm..maybe few months ago?

Now hush lil' baby don't you cry

Everything's gonna be alright.

Stiffen that upper lid up little lady, I told ya

Daddy's here to hold ya through the night.

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bye from my couz house.