hey sexy lady with a leg on the table

Hi readers I'm so very sorry about short posts. Actually, I'm not cuz I like to record whatever happened to my life so shut up if you don't like it. 

Ok outfit for Sunday was really really casual; Jeans and shirt. Both new, I like! 

Went to the temple with my cousin and yea went home, lol. Boring day so nothing much.

Moving on to Monday- Start of the new school term.

We're changing seats and to be honest, I want to sit with Gabriel and Sabrina. :( I'll miss them. 

Ok, there's really nothing else to look forward to so I'm ending off here with a picture of me and my poong poong who died :(

lol hate camLADIES? so sorry, cuz Im not a whore. Well at least 98% of people who take photos of themselves are not whores so camwhore is a totally wrong term to use dearies. 

hi poong i miss you so much cuz Buddy dislikes me i think.

Stiffen that upper lip up lil' lady

I was pulling myself into depression mood yesterday and Iris had to spend quite a long time to save me lol, yea the group BFCBJKM chat also cheered me up abit.
I was discussing about Tattoos with my parents and lol even though they were nagging I felt so loved. Like finally, all those feelings which left me for a couple of months just came back yesterday. Didn't know whether to cry for depression or joy.

Feeling one-
Centrestage// Deluding myself in lies// Feeling so hopeless cuz I can't even do what I love to do properly---

So I was thinking that I should not even open my mouth to any melody cuz I'm not even good at all. And thanks to everybody who said "Omg the song choice ok leh, can sing." and now when I didn't get into the finals, they came back bullshitting "Maybe it's song choice." Wow thanks. I love your advice, so you're telling me? knn
Just can't express how angry at those people.

Feeling two-
Asking about getting tattoos when I grow up// Questioning about society to my parents// Trashing centre stage to my parents

1) Tattoos
If you're a new reader, I love tattoos. We were watching an American show and there's this woman with tattoos all over her body. I started pointing at the woman and told my father "Eh papa I really want tattoo."

Dad to sis: "You see lah! Come home with tattoo just want scolding only."
Me: "Tsk scold nia"
Sis: "Aiyah pa, disown her!"
Dad: "No lah, won't disown."
Mum: "I tell you all, your parents will never disown, ok?"
-a few seconds of silence-
Me: "Oh so means I can have tattoos lah! ^_^"
Parents: "----------"

Simple convo which brightens me up, my parents love me! LOL.

2) Questioning about society
I was very frustrated about Singapore's kiasu-ness. So I was questioning my dad why must we put so much stress on ourselves. He didn't tell me anything much but just this
"i don't know actually, but I agree with you. I hope that you and mei can earn money and get out of this country and enjoy life. Just don't do drugs ok."

me: "o_o ok."

3) Centre stage
lol this, my mum just keep telling me that maybe one day I can just live my dreams. She told me that surely those who went into then finals have got special vocal lessons lol.
Let me just recall when was the last time she encouraged me.
Hm..maybe few months ago?

Now hush lil' baby don't you cry

Everything's gonna be alright.

Stiffen that upper lid up little lady, I told ya

Daddy's here to hold ya through the night.

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bye from my couz house.

Just can't fucking take it anymore and it's been years since I felt like this. I need someone to talk to but my contacts are just so fucking limited. I'm in one of those moods which I can just burst out crying the fuck out of my minds. Lesson learnt- Never trust whatever people say unless you see/hear for yourself. Don't be delusional, stop being delusional. Nobody likes you. Fuck off from this planet. Nobody can understand you. Get it? ok.

9:48am
I don't know what to do now but I just woke up with an awfully hungry stomach. My bro is watching the TV with full blast volume and I'm continuously refreshing my Twitter. lol Honestly, I think that BFCBKJM is so much better than Unknowns. Whatever you bunch of dead people who can't talk.
Yesterday, MY chatted with me and I had a different feeling this time round. Wtf I used to anticipate so much when we chat but now it's just like "can we stop talking". Don't know but I feel sad and bad talking to him.
Also, about N, I think I've no feelings for him already. Deleted all of our convo and his photos. I think it's so much better not liking anybody.....or just fantasize about Baron Chen :D
Fuck this shit I shall eat now. Updating later again wheee

12:59pm
Damn it just had 'lunch' and idk what's wrong with me! I always eat a while bowl of meggie but today I can only manage 1/8 of it and drank all the soup only. I'm so fungry lah but just can't eat. fffu

5:30pm
lol i decided to get over him already. Damn sian if a person only dare to text you and treat you like some invisible woman in school right? Anna said it gets to no where, so true. I think it's stupid. Our relationship gets to no where at all, so boring. What's the use!
Can't you just fucking talk or something?!
On my birthday last year, at least MY did something sweet but you did nothing at all, jerk.
He sent a birthday text at 12am sharp last year and you sent a birthday text at around 6pm this year. Wah.
You still got the cheek to tell me "Eh your birthday ah, I not doing anything at all hor" I said ok cuz I don't want any awkwardness but LOL wtf. You really did NOTHING at all.
Lol fuck you. I feel sorry for you. Why? Cuz you don't have any courage at all and your love life is gonna suck soo much.

9:58pm
Just went back from CCHMS after spying on my sis lol wtf. My dinner is only a half bowl of rice and soup, so not hungry. What's wrong with me, I guess I would be fungry at midnight again. As usual lol.

New Hair

I went to the salon around my neighbourhood this morning and the results of my hair made me happy :D

Happy Felly is Happy!!

Dad dropped the three of us at the salon and my sister went to fix her hair first. Then my bro, then me lol.

Duration needed to sit on the chair getting our hair cut with an itchy nose:

Sis- 1 hour

Bro- 30 minutes

Me- 1 hour

I slept halfway during the cutting with my fringe covering my eyes. But the uncomfy-ness is totally worth it. 

The aunty is nice. Unlike those stupid hair-dressers who cut your hair exactly the way you want it which always looks ugly on you, the aunty didn't. 

Instead she was blabbering about how my left and right sides of my short hair are uneven and she won't cut it too short for me incase it curls. Also, about my fringe, I didn't said anything much but the outcome is sooo freaking good. After that, she even straightened my hair without me requesting lol. My first time getting my hair straightened and spazzing about perfectly straight hair. 

I THINK MY BANGS ARE CUTE LOL.

5:37pm
It's fathers' day today and I did nothing at all. He was searching for jobs while my mother was nagging the hell out of herself. There's nothing much today... Er I only drank soup with fish for lunch, and a white piece of bread for break.
That's amazing, lol so proud of muself. I wanna be only 45kg. I can do this :{ )

Slick day

Woke up in the middle of the night sweating and I realised I was sleeping on a boat with rocky waters. I pushed something heavy beside me and went back to sleep. I woke up suddenly feeling really hot and I realised that something soft was covering my body and I pushed that thing away.."OI WAKE UP." and I was back on my bed with a terrible headache.
I couldn't breathe and Dad forced me to take Panadols. I simply dislike them and I choked on it, again. WTF. But I felt so much better.
Chiong-ed all my tuition homework and went to Mrs Chuah with my sister.
Ate the Mango Beancurd before we went to tuition ^_^
Anyway I think the sec 4 guy is more shuai in home clothes.
Went to KFC for dinner and KLP to buy Yoguru and cupcake for my brother.
Hom-ed and read The Expressionless fuck the writer who wrote it. It's fucking creepy.

Tagged and Answered.

Pretty sure that Facebookers know about this 'viral' thingy that goes around tagging people and begs them to answers some questions. 

I'm gonna answer that whole list of questions below er..

Cuz I'm really bored....besides talking to someone now. Hm...

Once you are tagged, answer all the questions honestly, no avoiding!

Starting time: 12:48am

Name: uh ah ain't falling into this

Shoe size: -6 for my canvas shoes

                -7/7.5 for any other shoes

Hair type/Color: Long hair/ I don't know the colour lol but mixed brown and black...

Piercings: One on each earlobe

Tattoos: Imaginary one on the right wrist of mine which says "Don't lose who you are"

Height: 164cm

Weight: 46kg

Righty or Lefty: Righty

What are you wearing now: My panties/bra, smiley t-shirt and my primary school's shorts 

Where do you live: Singapore

Favorite numbers: 29 and 12

Saved emails: No lol

Saved texts: Yea

Been cheated on: Meh I'm too young for this shit

Your room like: Pig sty. A comfy one.

What's right beside me: My phone

What is the last thing you ate: Jelly

Chicken pox: Had it but no I don't want it

Sore throat: Oh no I have a throat made of titanium

Stitches: Yes

Broken nose: Nope

-Do you-

Believe in love at first sight: No

Have any aspirations: Duh

Believe in friends with benefits: No lol one will surely love/like the other

-Who-

Did you last yell at: Sissy?

Was the last person you danced with: My guy friend, I forgotten his name, when I was in Kindergarten.

Last made you smile: Buddy!

-Final Questions-

What are you listening to right now: This fucking typing sounds

What did you do today: Meh computer and respiring

Are you the oldest: Living on this planet? Hell no duh

Indoors or outdoors: Both...

-Today did you- (wtf you said final leh)

Talk to someone you like: Duh friends are people I like

Kiss anyone: Nah

Sing: Yeap

Talk to an ex: LOL yea?

Miss someone: No

Eat something bad: Nah

-Last person who-

You talked to on the phone: My grandad

Went to the movies with: Ruth, Iue Chi, Qi Ying

You went to the mall with: le Dad, Mum, Bro

Who cheered you up: Andrea with her party invitation lol

-Have you-

Been to Mexico: No

Been to USA : No

-Random-

Do you have a crush on someone: I did and now...I don't think so

What books are you reading now: Are you a fetard how can I type and read wtf

Best feeling in the world: People said orgasms but I think feeling blessed would be the best...how does an orgasm feels like anyway...?

Future kids names: Maybe something like.."Hey YO/SUP dinner's ready" LOL

What's under your bed: Medusa

Who do you really hate: No one actually

What time is it now: 1:17am

-Final few-

Single, dating, crushing: Single

What kind of people who you can't stand: I can go on and on but just a few...flirts, people who act popular, hypocrites, backstabbers, selfish people? lol

Are you pretty: Some say yes some say no..so maybe? nah I love comforting myself

Skinny or fat: My mummy says I'm skinny so skinny hehe

Innocent or Mafia: Saint. Nuff said

Favorite quote: Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars.

                        Seeing is deceiving dreaming is believing, it's ok not to be ok. 

                        Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart

                        Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising..Just be true to who you are.

Meh shit this question, just listen to every JessieJ's songs and tadah you'll have favorite quote(S).

Favorite songs: The whole of Who You Are album

Favorite artists: Jessie J, CL, Bom

Vulgar: Yea

Bitchy: Not for me to judge

Dated: Yea

Bias in each K-Pop group?

• Super Junior- None
• SNSD- Taeyeon
• SHINee- Minho/Jonghyun/Onew
• 2NE1-2NE1 lol
• FT Island- None
• SS501- None
• BIGBANG- T.O.P
• TVXQ- None
• 2PM- None
• Sistar- None
• Miss A- None
• MBLAQ- None
• CN Blue- None
• After school- Before school lol no
• KARA- None
• TARA- None
• f(x)- None
• EXO-M- wtf is this
• EXO-K- wtf is this

-END-

What I did yesterday

Yesterday, was fun/boring/scary/exciting.. o_O 

Bro went out with my gannys and before setting off, grandma passed me $200 and said that I could buy any clothes or shoes with it. Obviously like any other teenage girls, our reaction would be "omfg new clothes and shoes man fuck yeah". I ran back home and told my dad about it, he told me not to be so happy first. Suspicious me was suspicious. 

He refused to tell me anything about the money cuz he said he need to ask grandma too. So...I was bored, no excitement already mah, then I glued glow-in-the-dark stickers onto the wall right infront of my study table. 

It was a sticky mess but worth it. Looking at my wall, I've no reason to be sad anymore woots. 

My grannys came to my house and talked about the money. You know what? Yes, the money would be used for buying clothes. But it's for this ritual to prove that I'm a grown up. My dad said that all of my cousin went through this ritual when they turn 14, which is 15 if you count it lunar-ticly. LOL sorry I cannot find any better words to use.

Nothing wrong with this ritual anyway, cuz you get NEW shoes, clothes, bag, socks blah blah blah. New one leh, who don't want ;)

Well for the shoes, I would just be using my new canvas shoes which I haven't wore before...save money what. The clothes chio can already. 

I was excited but afraid about 'what would happen to me' after I'm a grown up. I think nothing is gonna happen wtf lol. 

The rest of the day was spent on homework and food.

We went to Nex after dinner to buy all those new shits. Mum bought me this damn pretty romper and a bag. 

$44 after discount lolol.

I was mad happy, who wouldn't be. It's not like I'm those lucky girls who go shopping like everyday. I only buy new clothes either for Chinese New Year or when there's really nothing to wear ._.

We bought a cake to celebrate mum's lunar birthday and it's fummy. 

Went back home and connected the laptop to the TV to spam Youtube videos. I was spamming Jessie J's live performances and I made my dad admire her lolol. I told him "A person would be damn happy if he or she can sing like her loh." He was like "lol no wonder you're not happy."

-_- Day ended with my sis using the computer and I couldn't sleep lol. 

 watch this for peace. They look like siblings!

My 3rd Lunar Birthday this year

I've celebrated my 3rd lunar birthday of 2012 just now at around 10pm with my family after coming home from an Indian Restaurant lol. See that beautiful picture above? That's strawberry cheesecake yay.

We went to Compass Point to search for cake and a new iPhone cover. My chio cover spoil already wtf. It cracked :( I've been looking for a cover which will suit the skull dust-plug Qi Ying gave to me but gahhh I can't find any :(

Anyway it's like 1am now so it's my mum's lunar birthday LOLOL :D . 

I'm so glad that my mum's birthday is just one day before mine. Why? 

Cuz like that can save money mah, celebrate together LOL. Some more Darrel 15/5 also! 

Till then before I sleep..

A photo of me, without any edits.With my specs, and my I <3 Sg shirt. Messy hair blah blah blah.

Don't I look hot?!

"This is how I look without Make-up. Hot aye?"

-Jessie J

7th June 2012

On 7th June, we celebrated Iue's birthday. It was quite fun but I was bankrupt which was NO fun lol.

Ruth mom's dropped us at Bugis where we bought Iue's present (a three shade of pink Silky Girl Lipgloss) and off we head to Plaza Sing. 

We bought movie tickets for Man In Black 3 and waited for Qi Ying to arrive. It was grand when she arrived...hair combing, hair flipping... Bimbo lah :p

Sat at the corridor and Qi Ying gave us our presents she bought from Genting. I got a cute bear wrist-rest, a skull dust plug and a Hello Kitty Geek specs(Qi Ying's)  lol. 

The day was just fun cuz I screamed my lungs out with Qi Ying in the arcade. It's awefuckingsome man. Iue Chi came a bit late but who cares lol the lead role came! :D

Went to Pizza Hut for lunch and I scared Iue Chi with a creepy picture. Tadah, the whole Pizza Hut stared at us...hmm interesting. I was wearing the geek specs throughout anyway. 

Ok so we went to watch Man In Black 3 and saw our co-form. Awkward but together with her husband, they are damn cute LOL. 

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The arcade is damn addictive lah, especially the lil booth where you catch soft toys. Damn boliao one. I decided to try for ONCE and I lost.....but I tried it again -_- so much for promising myself that I'll only do it once. So addictive how can I not resist! Spent 4 credits on it. My dear Ruth spent about $30 catching nothing. xD

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Really love Iue Chi haha. She was trying hard to help me with my struggles that day. byee

Tattoos

If you're my friend, you should know what I would wanna do when I grow up.

I WANNA HAVE TATTOOS!

Not those big ones, but maybe some meaningful small ones.

I've been researching about tattoos the whole day and what I found out was quite hmm... scary.

Smart people knows that tattoos stay with you forfuckingever. And you wouldn't want to regret after walking out of the tattoo parlour. Unless you're insanely drunk.

Ok, I've found out that by having a tattoo, you'll need to go through pain. Cuz a needle would be poking in and out of your skin and duh it'll be painful. Not that painful but THAT painful if you're doing it on your bony areas. 

I've been thinking of getting a tattoo on my inner left wrist; and my wrist is rather bony so fuck my life.

Afraid of the 'pain', I researched on how does the pain feels like. 

Well, they said that it feels like a needle grazing your skin with a burning sensation. Of course, uncomfy and scary.

My reaction was "oh no." 

So I did something really dumb-

Using my badge pin, scratch out some lines hardly into the skin of my inner wrist.

It didn't hurt that bad actually! but who knows lol. Maybe I'm too soft on myself? Oops. 

WHO CARES THE OUTCOME WOULD BE GREAT IF I'M GONNA HAVE A TATTOO.

The other problem of having tattoos.....is that it will fuck your career opportunities up. It's like a career killer.

WHY. MY. LORD. 

It's just tattoos! I wanna be a doctor when I grow up, I wanna have a tattoo when I grow up. 

boomz my dreams clashed!

And I told my mum, "mummy! I really want tattoo leh! But doctor cannot have tattoos!!"

Mama's reaction?  "OH TOO BAD MY DEAR"

D': so much win, mumma.

Oh and to think, my parents aren't really fans of tattoos, they hates them. 

..................................................

How the heck am I going to get tattoos in the future!

I've seen a few YouTube videos about how parents react to their children who just got their tattoos, I couldn't stop laughing. 

I want angmoh parents too, they are so much lenient and open-minded.

Let's just hope that maybe someday, my Asian parents are gonna be a lil more open minded in terms of body modifications. 

Heck it I do what I want when I'm legal.

WHY ARE GAY GUYS SO HOT

Ending off with hot people.

duck face...anyone?

Just wanna annoy you guys with this thing called the 

DUCK FACE.

Well, duck faces make people wanna punch the computer screen aye? 

Just like how Qi Ying feels like slapping me when I do the duck face.

whoopsie.

love traumatizing people.

Nasty yikes. Double terror.

I think your lips are alil big...

*facepalm*

Girls! Please do things seriously, we know that copying is hardwork, not to mention, trying to be a duck....

Now let's move on to MY FACE. 

Ready? 

:COME AND PUNCH THE SCREEN YO.

Don't I look cute?

ok, this is getting ridiculous.

I've ruined my image.

Anyway, one question.................

are most girls related to ducks?